Love Found A Way !!

The following is channeled information from a certain vessel that resonated deeply within me and I only share this because it spoke to me of the Matrix or Mother aspect of God that struggled to birth us into existence.

It also spoke truth to me that God also had to "lose" Its life to find it as us, making so true that scripture that says, "He that loses his life, shall find it."

"This absolute, ever-expanding, instantaneous psychic gestalt,

(definition of gestalt:)
set regarded as whole: a set of things such as a person's thoughts and experiences considered as a whole and regarded as amounting to more than the sum of its parts

which you may call God if you prefer, is so secure in its existence that it can constantly break itself down and rebuild itself. Its energy is so unbelievable that it does indeed form all universes; and because its energy is within and behind all universes, systems, and fields, it is indeed aware of each sparrow that falls, for it is each sparrow that falls.

There is being, as opposed to nonbeing. Now- and this will seem like a contradiction in terms- there is nonbeing. It is a state, not of nothingness, but a state in which probabilities and possibilities are known and anticipated but blocked from expression.

Dimly, through what you would call history, hardly remembered, there was such a state. It was a state of agony in which the powers of creativity and existence were known, but the ways to produce them were not known.This is the lesson that All That Is had to learn, and that could not be taught. This is the agony from which creativity originally was drawn, and its reflection is still seen.

Some of this discussion is bound to be distorted, because I must explain it to you in terms of time as you understand it. So I will speak of some indescribably distant past in which these events occurred. All That Is retains memory of that state, and it serves as a constant impetus toward renewed creativity. Each self, as a part of All that Is, therefore also retains memory of that state. It is for this reason that each minute consciousness is endowed with the impetus toward survival, change, development, and creativity. It is not enough that All That Is desires further being, but that each portion of It also carries this determination.Yet the agony itself was used as a means, and the agony itself served as an impetus, strong enough so the All That Is initiated within Itself the means to be.

If – and this is impossible – all portions but the most minute last ‘unit’ of All That Is were destroyed, All That Is would continue, for within the smallest portion is the innate knowledge of the whole. All That Is protects Itself, therefore, and all that It has and is and will create.The first state of agonized search for expression may have represented the birth throes of All That Is as we know it.

Pretend, then, that you possessed within yourself the knowledge of all the world’s masterpieces in sculpture and art, that they pulsed as realities within you, but that you had not physical apparatus, no knowledge of how to achieve them and you ached with the yearning to produce them. This, on an infinitesimally small scale, will perhaps give some idea of the agony that was felt.

Within All That Is, the wish, desire, and expectation of creativity existed before all other actuality. The strength and vitality of these desires and expectations then became in your terms so insupportable that All That Is was driven to find the means to produce them.In other words, All That Is existed in a state of being, but without the means to find expression for Its being. This is the state of agony of which we spoke, yet it is doubtful that without this ‘period’ of contracted yearning, All That Is could concentrate Its energy sufficiently enough to create the realities that existed in probable suspension within It.The agony and the desire to create represented Its proof of Its own reality. The feelings, in other words, were adequate proof to All That Is that It was.

At first all of probable reality existed as nebulous dreams within the consciousness of All That Is. Later, the unspecific nature of these ‘dreams’ grew more particular and vivid. The dreams became recognizable one from the other until they drew the conscious notice of All That Is. And with curiosity and yearning, All That Is paid more attention to Its own dreams.

It then purposely gave them more and more detail, and yearned toward this diversity and grew to love that which was not yet separate from itself. It gave consciousness and imagination to personalities while they still were but within Its dreams. They also yearned to be actual.

Potential individuals, had consciousness before the beginning or any beginning as you know it then. They clamored to be released into actuality, and All That Is, in unspeakable sympathy, sought within Itself for the means.

In Its massive imagination, It understood that the cosmic multiplication of consciousness that could not occur within that framework. Actuality was necessary if these probabilities were to be given birth. All That Is saw, then, an infinity of probable, conscious individuals, and foresaw all possible developments, but they were locked within It until It found the means.

This was in your terms a primary cosmic dilemma, and one with which It wrestled until All That Is was completely involved and enveloped within that cosmic problem.Had it not solved it, All That Is would have faced insanity, and there would have been, literally, a reality without reason and a universe run wild.

The pressure came from two sources: from the conscious but still probable individual selves (us) who found themselves alive in a God’s dream, and from the God who yearned to release them.On the other hand, you could say that the pressure existed simply on the part of the God since the creation existed within Its dream, but such tremendous power resides in such primary pyramid gestalts that even their dreams are endowed with vitality and reality.

It also recognized within each consciousness the massive potential that existed. The means, then, came to It. It must release the creatures and probabilities from Its dream! To do so would give them actuality. However, it also meant ‘losing’ a portion of Its own consciousness, for it was within that portion that they were held in bondage.

All That Is had to let go. While It thought of these individuals as Its creations, It held them as a part of Itself and refused them actuality.To let them go was to ‘lose’ that portion of Itself that had created them.

Already It could scarcely keep up with the myriad probabilities that began to emerge from each separate consciousness. With love and longing It let go that portion of Itself, and they were free.

This energy exploded in a flash of creation. All That Is, therefore, ‘lost a portion of Itself in that creative endeavor. All That Is loves all that It has created down to the least, for It realized the dearness and uniqueness of each consciousness which has been wrest from such a state and at such a price. It is triumphant and joyful at each development taken by each consciousness, for this is an added triumph against that first state, and It revels and takes joy in the slightest creative act of each of Its issues.

It, of Itself and from that state, has given life to infinities of possibilities. From its agony, It found the way to burst forth in freedom, through expression, and in so doing gave existence to individualized consciousness. Therefore It is rightfully jubilant.

Yet all individuals remember their source, and now dream of All That Is as All That Is once dreamed of them. And they yearn toward that immense source….and yearn to set It free and give It actuality through their own creations.

The motivating force is still All That Is, but individuality is no illusion. And you create for the same reason, and within each of you is the memory of that primal agony – that urge to create and free all probable consciousness into actuality.

Many have been sent through the centuries of your time to help, for as you develop you also form new dimensions, and then you will help others.These connections between you and All That Is can never be severed, and Its awareness is so delicate and focused that Its attention is indeed directed with a prime creator’s love to each consciousness.

All portions of All That Is are constantly changing, enfolding, and unfolding. All That Is, seeking to know Itself, constantly creates new versions of Itself. For this seeking Itself is a creative activity and the core of all its action.There is a portion of All That Is directed and focused within each individual, residing within each consciousness. Each consciousness is, therefore, cherished and individually protected. This portion of overall consciousness is individualized within you.

The personality of God as generally conceived is a one-dimensional concept based upon man’s small knowledge of his own psychology. What you prefer to think of as God is, again, an energy gestalt or pyramid consciousness. It is aware of itself as being, for instance, you. It is also aware of itself as the smallest seed….This portion of All That Is that is aware of itself as you, that is focused with your existence, can be called upon for help when necessary.

This portion is also aware of itself as something more than you. This portion that knows itself as you, and as more than you, is the personal God, you see. Again: this gestalt, this portion of All That Is, looks out for your interest and may be called upon in a personal manner.

Prayer contains its own answer, and if there is no white-haired kind old father-God to hear, then there is instead the initial and ever-expanding energy that forms everything that is and of which each human being is a part.This psychic gestalt may sound impersonal to you, but since its energy forms your person, how can this be?

If you prefer to call this supreme psychic gestalt God, then you must not attempt to objectify him, for he is the nuclei of your cells and more intimate than your breath.What you call God is the sum of all consciousness, and yet the whole is more than the sum of Its parts. God is more than the sum of all personalities, and yet all personalities are what He is."